Oct 24, 2010

Memorial Box Monday: Stone Mountain

Once or twice a week I try to head out to the Stone Mountain, which is literally right behind my office's parking lot. It's a great place to exercise - just climbing (walking) to the top takes a lot out of you, if you are not used to it.

When I first moved to GA,I went to the mountain a couple of times, but not really wowed by it. In fact, I was quite underwhelmed. In my mind - this was not much of a mountain - more like a big rock, you can't climb it, and it has a sordid history. The park was good-looking, but it did not touch my heart either, because I was still bitter and angry to be in this state in the first place. I won't go into the reason why we moved, because it's not really the point of my post.

I'm sure there has been a time in all our lives where we are placed in an alien environment, far away from home, from people you love, and no hope of ever getting back to where you are safe and comfortable. I know I was. I was praying to God not forget and abandon me here and bring me back home. There were days when I felt like I could not stand my new life, my new city, it's people, and it's nature.

I think God spoke to my heart and reminded me of the pearls story, but I was too angry to pay attention, and like a hurt child would simply turn my heart away from the possibility of this being a wonderful beginning to my new life. Not so long ago my sister in Christ, best friend, my soul-mate and Godmother of my child came to visit me. She said that the nature, the mountain, everything about this city was beautiful. She took tons of pictures or every slope and hill and flower that we could find. We went to the mountain and took pictures there, and she could not stop talking about how amazing this place is.

I think seeing the mountain and my city from another person's eyes helped start seeing it's beauty as well. also to see my circumstance as a blessing and really a beginning, rather than the banishment from home. I know that sounds like someone of very little faith, as God would never give us more than we can handle. He also cares deeply about the little things and what makes his children happy.

At the same time, did I not pray once - God, let me do your work no matter what it takes? Let me be your instrument?

Now, as I go to the Mountain, I see God saturating that place in the colors of the trees, the sparkling of the granite floor, the scent of pines in the wind, the sound of a train in the distance, and most of all in the people who comes to visit it. It's a moving tapestry, and He lets me be part of it every time. Even if I am not having the best day, He will walk beside me quietly like a friend and a father. But most of the time we just talk, about everything and nothing at the same time. Without words - just glimpses of grace, truth, and love. There are spots on your way up that look like you are on the moon, and there are spots that make you feel like you are walking on top of the river of frozen silver. There is a spot where you can stop and rest and see the WHOLE city in front of you.

I believe that God brought me here for a reason. I don't know yet what this reason is yet or what plans he has in store for me, but I know it will be awesome. He has given me a beautiful place to live, full of amazing, kind, and joyful people. It may not be my old home, but it is my new one, and He is making it amazing.
These are my new pearls. I shall start wearing them now.


Kim Foo Young said...

Oh - Anna. How I love thee. You are my soulmate friend too. The Lord has blessed me in my life with someone like you. Someone who stands for me at times I don't even want to stand for myself. At times when I am ashamed of who I am or what I've done - you have stood for me and insisted in having pride in who I am in spite or even because of who I am or what I've done. You are certainly Jesus to me. Someone who stands for me even when I don't deserve it. You and arlene have changed my life and changed who I am.

This blog - of course - makes me cry - with joy with happiness with glee. Few things in my life have broken my heart like watching you move out of state. Heart wrenching body shaking sobs at losing a friend like you from such an integral focus in my life. But I know God has plans for you and your family. I know God makes good of EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING ANNA. every horrible thing in our life - God can make good things come out of it.

And as much as nothing would make me happier than one day for yall to move back - really and honestly nothing comes close to that like hearing you say that you are happy and you have found beautiful things in your new life and you see God in it. I am so happy for you this morning - you have made my day. and i love your fricking guts.

Catalina said...

Gosh, you are gonna make me cry, then Im gonna make you cry, and this will be one big cry-fest. Love you too, sis.

Renee said...

Coming from MBM, I wanted to share how your story touched me today. We are preparing to retire and have been sruggling with where....My husband has a place near to his heart and I have been less than encouraging about it....Today after reading my morning devotions and having them affirmed here with your post, I am going to start praising God forwhere he sends us...because it will be a place of abundant blessings if we are obedient to God's will...Bless you in your home....


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